I went on a mission to try and find Star Wars on VHS at all of my local retailers. I didn't try the biggest retailer of them all since going there just skeeves me out. Even so, I'll probably head there after dinner.
I realized while I was out hunting that I feel like I did right after I broke up with Holly. The biggest differences though were that when I left Holly I was finally free after a long time in the darkness of hell, and I could spend time improving myself. I was also completely alone, and able to do whatever I wanted. I was still racked by total lonliness, but it felt like growing pains.
This time, I'm not alone, I'm just apart from Heather and my friends, because Heather's in the hospital, and my friends are scattered to the four winds. Driving 4 hours a day to and from work also cuts into whatever time I would have left to spend with them. And the lonliness feels like I'm missing a limb, or motive power. I feel adrift and isolated.
Awesome sentiment! I totally agree with you!