I've gone back off the Topamax and I've never felt better! After weeks and weeks and weeks of feeling dopey and like I was losing my mind, and being jittery, and anxious after I took the medication, and not sleeping, I finally called my neurologist and said "This ISN'T working." I think he finally listened and agreed that I could go off of the Topamax, and I'm back on the original, very small dose of Trileptal that I was on a long time ago.
My plan now is to get off of that next.
As I said about two weeks ago I'm looking for a no drugs alternative to controlling whatever it is going on inside my head and heart. I don't believe I have epilepsy. I think the seizures I've had are flukes, and they need to be given less weight than the panic attacks and the stressors in my life.
To that end, I'm seeing an acupuncturist I trust. I've scheduled an appointment with a famed group of ayurvedic and herbalist doctors in Delaware that I will be seeing at the end of the month.
I don't think that drugs are the answer for me, and they will never be the answer for me. Maybe it's a matter of belief. I just don't believe in them, so they don't work for me...a placebo effect in reverse.
Whatever it is, I don't care. I'm off the Topamax, and I feel a million times better than I have in a while.
Here is more information about ayurvedic medicine if you're interested.
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