So I figured out what was bothering me with my car accident the most. I've had a lot of cars in my day: 2 Dodge Shadows (one with Turbo, one without), Dodge Aries K, Dodge Neon, a '77 Ford Thunderbird, a Chevy Corsica, a VW Rabbit, and of course, my Honda Accord. I've also had a quite a few car accidents, but this one feels so different.
My Accord is the first car I bought brand-new from a dealer. It's the first car that I had that was truly my own from the very start. And in the last couple of months I've been religious in taking care of it. Changing the oil before it needed to be done, washing the car every weekend, waxing it, cleaning the interior, keeping the car clean of trash. (Trust me, this is all VERY new behavior for me) So I feel like I let the car down, or betrayed it by getting into an accident. It's almost as if I'd gone out to get a drink and my wife had gotten punched in the mouth for something that I said.
I want to give my car a big hug and tell it I'm sorry. I know I know, I'm being crazy, but that's how I feel, and there's no accounting for my emotions.
Luckily, Heather and I opted for a $250 deductible on the Honda, so we won't pay very much to get her fixed.
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